Three under three. Our family will have this distinction for approximately three more weeks. I know that many mothers have experienced similar times with their young children, but for us, I can definitely say that these past few months have been more than a little crazy.
Before Beau's arrival, our household certainly had our fair share of chaos. Most families with even one small child have that at least some of the time, & it's probably a given for those with multiples. Even through that chaos, however, I considered myself overall to be fairly organized, productive, efficient & generally "put-together."
Moving to a family of five has challenged all of those things that I believed to be true about myself & has humbled me to admit often that I'm so not "put-together." As much as I love my life, & as much as it is totally what I wanted, I find myself feeling like my head is detached from my body a good percentage of the time.
I suppose it comes with the territory, & I would venture to guess that I'm not alone in my feelings. Still, since I'd prefer not to feel totally scattered for the next eighteen years, I struggle to achieve a good balance. Yes, I know it's not the end of the world if our clothes don't get ironed, or if we miss a night of tooth-brushing or even if I don't get to read quite as many books to each child as I'd like to every day. But the overachiever in me can't resist trying.
I know in my head, & am slowly beginning to learn in my heart, that I just have to turn it all over to God. He has blessed me with these three precious ones, & has charged Justin & I with the task of raising them up for His service. He doesn't make mistakes, so He apparently knew what He was doing in giving them to us. Now I just have to let Him equip me & lead me in this journey.